Feelings Poured out

I know I have many steps out there to climb on and on
As it is laid before me
But for now
I am simply staring into nothingness
without knowing where to begin
where to go
who to call on
should I fight this battle forever?
And then there are choices all the time
But do I know which one to choose?
Nah! Never
I have never made a choice to feel proud of myself later...
It sucks.
And then at the end all I need is a place 
To feel at home
To hug myself
and Let it live in peace...

Death, You are so cruel...

Oh Death!

How could you be this cruel.
I never thought you'd be this cruel.
Who thought experience could teach more than thousand teachers?
You may be proud to think yourself a redeemer
For you ease people of their pain, sorrows, troubles and so on
But have you ever felt the pain of those who are left behind?
You leave them in eternal pain until you find them and embrace them too.
You cease them of their loved ones.
Leaving another set of people in the suffering of the lose,
While easing someone of their pain
You plant the seed of unhappiness in many
So in any way you are to be blamed
for being cruel to many
So death please don't be proud
Because for me your are cruel.

I Wish I Can Mom...

I wish, I can talk to you for one last time
I wish, I can hug you for one last time
I wish, I can kiss you for one last time
I wish, I can hear your voice one last time
I wish, I can run into your embrace one last time
I wish, I can eat the food prepared by you one last time
I wish, I can apologize to you for all the lies one last time
I wish, I can make up for all the time I fought with you for one last time
I wish, I can believe that you will be waiting for me at home one last time
I wish all these wishes come true one last time.....
Miss you so much mom
I still can't bring myself to believe that you are no more..
That void you have made in my heart and life can never be restored..

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