Feelings Poured out

I know I have many steps out there to climb on and on
As it is laid before me
But for now
I am simply staring into nothingness
without knowing where to begin
where to go
who to call on
should I fight this battle forever?
And then there are choices all the time
But do I know which one to choose?
Nah! Never
I have never made a choice to feel proud of myself later...
It sucks.
And then at the end all I need is a place 
To feel at home
To hug myself
and Let it live in peace...